Life

A couple days ago, I was working at my job as a cashier when suddenly a little girl approached with her mother and brother handing me an item her mother was going to purchase for her. The little girls eyes were so innocent, so excited about her mother going to purchase something. This little girl was a girl I was too familiar with. I asked her her name, she replied "Sherri." This little girls name was Sherri. She was Mexican and from what a guy had told me part Filipino. I remembered this girl, because I had met her once before at a basketball game. It was a basketball game a friend of mine had invited me to because he was coaching for the team in which Sherri was a player in. I asked her if she remembered me, she just looked at me with a blank stare, her mom looked at me with a concerned look. I then told Sherri and her mom that I was friends with her daughters coach, then they were all smiles again. I then reminded Sherri that I was the girl who was with her coach waiting for her parents to pick her up after her basketball game. She then exclaimed "Oh YEA!" What they didn't know was the coach was my ex, and Sherri was a comment in which he gave me. At that game I was upset because my ex didn't introduce me to anyone there as his girlfriend or even his friend. I was hurt and when we were waiting for Sherri's parents to arrive, he sent me a text message because I was sitting away from them, I didn't want to intrude in a place I wasn't welcomed. He gestured to me to check my phone. The text message read "This is probably how our daughter would look."

The little girl didn't know that she was involved in such a meaningful day for me. She will never know. Thinking of the moment makes me feel so heartbroken all over again, he told me things he never meant and all the red flags were there.

That day I went home and wrote wedding vows, I know it's cheesy, but at that moment I knew he was truly the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I was determined to steal his last name. Now all I'm determined to do is let him go, never look back, I want to remember but also forget, I forgive the horrible things he has said and done to me. I know I will find a man worth loving eventually. I look forward to that day, when thoughts or memories of my ex will no longer make me cry.