I don't understand how I could give my everything, myself, to a man who couldn't give a damn about me. I don't understand and I know I never will, there is no happy ending when it comes to him. A man I fell completely in love with, a man who abused me and I yearn for his abuse.
Emotional abusive relationships are horrible, I wonder if I will ever be the same.
I will feel alright for so long until my mind opens a thought in which I held down during our relationship, only because I felt it wasn't worth mentioning at the time. I did everything to secure him with me, and instead, it secured him, secured him to cheat on me.
I held onto remnants of him, I kept him as a friend on my STEAM account for a very long time, until 2 days ago, I deleted him. I know I am done with him, that's what hurts the most, I'm done with him.
From now on, no matter if he contacts me, I can't go back.
I'm so hurt, I can't go back, I healed myself but the scars are still there.
Scars in which he gave me. It's over.
I will never understand why a human being would inflict this pain on another being.
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