Today was a very emotional morning because earlier this day I stayed up chatting with a friend until 2 a.m. We chatted about memories, good memories, then I got super depressed because I started missing the chats with my emotionally abusive boyfriend.
These emotions are literally horrible, it's like you're leaving a chunk of you behind to only have it tugging at you constantly, never truly letting you go or you getting away from it. Reading other blogs helped me, because I saw other people who are going through or went through what I am. The best advice the blogs had to offer are::
- Delete all memories ie. pictures, texts
- Hide all belongings in which they gave to you
- DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, CALL OR TEXT THE EX
- Remember you
Going through relationships is strongly like losing a loved one to death.One moment you're chatting fine, next minute you're arguing and within seconds or days they're completely gone from your life, but never forgotten.
I have accomplished the first and third step, I find it extremely difficult not to think of him when I'm wearing my Nikes; he bought my first ever pair. I was also wearing his shirt to bed last night, so that didn't help my coping.
Step 2 starts tomorrow, step 4 is going to take awhile, however I believe my 8-week running challenge starting this Monday will speed things up.
Until tomorrow, goodnight.
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